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[Dec. 25th, 2004|12:09 pm] |
i have no idea what i really sat down to write
i hate christmas
i woke up like 20 minutes ago
i walked around my house and i thought about how i wouldnt care if i died right now
and then i just went back to my room
the presents are sittin under the tree still
just waitin to be opened
i dunno
i think im just a bit lonely
well this livejoural thing is gettin pretty lame
so i doubt im gonna post many more times |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2004|01:19 am] |
so....
today, was, intersting
i dunno
ive been thinkin about so much stuff lately but its mostly lame
i went to court yesterday. i was there for like 4 and a half hours
and now im on pro-gay-tion
its not really probation, its like, a intervention program, i gotta like do a bunch of community service and gay shit like that, and then the state is gonna drop the charges. i guess that pretty cool. i miss everyone. i havent seen a lot of my friends in a while. especially rikki. i been thinkin about her lately and wonderin what shes up to. i saw nikkole the other day. im glad i got to go over there. it was like, i was puttin my life on pause and chillin watchin tv with one of my best friends. it just seems like my life has been so busy lately. i think i need to get one of those stress balls or something haha. well im really tired. so im goin to sleep. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|01:29 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
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| | john mayer | ] |
so ive been living in daytona the past week
its been pretty cool
im back in town for the weekend
its my birthday sunday
i dont really care
im not really looking forward to it all
lately ive just been thinking about how fake people really are
everyone is a liar and its starting to piss me off
i only have about 2 or 3 really good friends
i talk to two of them seldomly and havent seen either of them in forever
and i see one every couple of weeks
but i dont really tell anyone anything anymore
i keep everything inside of me
and try and hide it
im not really happy at all anymore
im just "here"
i feel like my existence is pointless
i dunno
i just want to find something thats gonna actually make me happy |
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[Oct. 20th, 2004|03:52 pm] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
i think im in love :-) |
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[Oct. 19th, 2004|01:17 am] |
i won't sleep again tonight
ill be up with you on my mind
its not the first time and it wont be the last
i just wish you could spend one day with me
i wouldn't care to die then
wouldnt be afraid to pull the trigger this time
i just wish you could spend one day as me
you could see how much you mean to me
and how much you pull me back
ill try to act like i dont care
but that wont get it either
its better than being down here on my knees
saying "oh baby baby please"
youre back, its always turned to me
and you think that i cant see what youre doing
really, youre the one who just cant see what youre doing to me |
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[Oct. 15th, 2004|01:55 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  very happy | ] |
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| | deftones deftones deftones | ] |
deftones kick ass
definitely the best show ive ever been to
im so tired
im worried about someone
i hope they're ok :-\ |
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[Oct. 10th, 2004|10:29 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
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| | three 6 mafia : beat em to the floor (rmx by swisha house) | ] |
ive changed a lot the last year
im glad though
im glad im not the same person i was last year
i dont ever wanna be that person again
i wanna be me forever
i hate fake people
i hate people who say one thing
but their actions say something totally different
actions speak louder than words
remember that
and i hate people who assume i am the stupidest fucking person alive
and lie to me
and expect me not to see through them
i hate it when you do everything you can
and try so hard to make people happy
and they return the favor by pretending you arent real
i gotta pick sides soon
and figure out what im gonna do with my life
i gotta get a job
im such a loser
show me you care and leave a comment |
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[Oct. 8th, 2004|08:59 am] |
well right now im feelin pretty shitty
oh well fuck it
life is lame, and hopefully i get shot today
if not, then theres always tomorrow |
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[Oct. 5th, 2004|01:03 am] |
so i was watching "cops" on tv
this asian cop joins some other officers in a back yard where theres this guy who had been eating valiums all day, and fucking trashed, standing with his back against a fence, half a bottle in one hand, and a knife in the other, which he kept holding to his heart and throat, threatening to kill himself.
then one of the officers and the drunk guy have a convo...
Drunk Guy : "Make a run for it, by the time you get here the knife will be in my chest and your mission will be fulfilled."
Officer : "I'm Officer Campbell."
Drunk Guy : "Officer Campbell? Do you make soup?"
Officer : "No, I don't make soup."
Drunk Guy : Go back to making soup."
i swear i almost pissed my pants when he said that
alright im goin to bed |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|08:43 pm] |
bri isnt going to homecoming
so i asked someone else to take me
but she doesnt want to or somethin like that
so i guess im not goin
oh well
it would prolly be lame anyways
alright well im out |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2004|03:36 pm] |
just got back home from a long weekend
me bri jordan and ben stayed two nights in clearwater
i got sunburnt
haha
it was really fun
me and bri talked a lot this weekend
about a bunch of stuff
im glad that she was there
she made the weekend so much better
i dunno if i am still going to homecoming
meagan isnt going
and everyone wants bri to go, but she doesnt wanna go
im gonna try and get her to go
i talked to her about it last night
she just doesnt wanna waste a bunch of money
alright well im out like a trout |
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[Oct. 1st, 2004|01:48 am] |
searching under a starless sky
searching for you again
back when we had everything to give, and nothing to lose
back to where we first began
what we never had
before i made a mess of things
before i smoked away my dreams
</3 |
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| should i stay or should i go |
[Sep. 30th, 2004|04:30 pm] |
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yesterday i got asked to go to pc's homecoming
i really wanna go, but i got no money
plus i doubt raburn will even let me go
so im not even getting my hopes up
but yeah
right now im waitin for genevie (g money)
to pick me up
so
im out |
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[Sep. 29th, 2004|06:51 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | happy | ] |
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| | john mayer : no such thing | ] |
today was a great day
:-D
this morning meagan called me at like 10:00 and wanted to hang out
i was tired as shit, but i still got up
we went to the park
then back to my house for a while
then we went to hang out with kirra and justin
but then i had to go home
i think shes stayin at kirras tonight
cause she still doesnt have power
so i might go over there later and smoke a cig or somethin
cause she lives right down the street
alright well im out this bitch |
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[Sep. 28th, 2004|11:17 am] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
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| | three 6 : cheefa tha reefa! | ] |
yesterday was a fun day
me and brett hung out all day
we went to the guitar center in lakeland
that was fun
but yeah
i think im goin over to nikkoles today
at least i hope so
im supposed to call her right now
but shes prolly sleepin and i dont wanna wake her up
thats all i can think to say
so peace
post if you want |
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| another lame hurricane day |
[Sep. 27th, 2004|04:02 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | but happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | deftones : pink maggit | ] |
i hate hurricane days
i always end up just sittin around my house bein bored as shit
well, i guess thats really all there is to do
considering its a freakin hurricane
but anyways
im so stoked
deftones are comin oct 14th
and im gonna be there
:D
yeah yeah
i know youre all jealous
anyways...
im happy
its autumn
things arent great
but they arent too shitty
i cannot sleep
im so tired
i tried to go to sleep
but i just layed there with my eyes open
i know why
its stupid
but w/e
im keepin my fingers crossed
cause tomorrow has the potential to be a really good day
but it could end up bein shitty like always |
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| livejournal is changing |
[Sep. 22nd, 2004|08:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
so im updating and uhhhhh
the window is definitely bigger or somethin
yeah
so anywho
i am fuckin bored
im talkin to haley and jeff online right now
earlier i hung out with tommy and then i went to bri's
her dad is out of town
but her dad's girlfriend made us spaghetti
it was alright
but i was starving so i definitely ate it
yeah
thats pretty much it
ill prolly update later tonight |
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